Saturday, January 30, 2010

A Tree You Needed To Climb, A Trick You Needed To Learn. A Piece Of Music. A Climbing Problem. A Number Of Burning Swords To Juggle.

The only thing more painful than being an active forgetter is to be an inert rememberer.

"Everyone is always going through tough things, the irony in it is that everyone thinks what they're going through is just as hard as what you are. Life isn't about surviving this, it's about understanding this"

I like the first two minutes after you wake up in the morning. You're still not really awake and your mind hasn't fully travelled between the dream world and the real world. You're still in the transition from unconscious to conscious, between dreams, fantasy, and reality. The two minutes where everything is fine and numb. The universe somehow magically allows you 120 seconds to just be you. You don't even know where you are yet, or who is sleeping beside you--or who is not sleeping beside you. Then there's that moment where it all just hits you. All the memories come flooding back and you remember everything.

The guy you just met and the new crush you have. The rent cheque that is due and your paycheque that is late. The dreaded deadline for that assignment which has caused you sleepless nights for weeks. The fight you had with your best friend, who you didn't wake up to a "good morning" text message from.

It doesn't matter what it is, sometimes the first feelings when you wake up are so intense. But listen, get the hell up. Don't you dare turn back in under the sheets and try to sleep it off. We are built to surprise ourselves. Constantly. The alarm goes off and you think there's no way you could get up out of your safe, warm bed and make it through the day. But you do. Maybe it took a few extra cups of coffee, but you did it. You wake up with a wicked hangover and think you'll never drink again. But you do. Did you forget how much it hurt? Nope, you just remember how much fun you had. Someone crushes your hopes and dreams and whatever pieces of your heart still left in your chest and you swear that you'll never love again. Guess what? You do. And in those quiet moments where everything is perfect, it's all worth it. What goes up must come down but what is down will go back up again, I promise. I'm in one of those moods where I'm at the top of the ferris wheel. I'm content with where I am, with the view, the people, and everything around me... I always aim for a bigger ferris wheel, but in this moment, I'm happy with what I've got.
--That being said, those who know me best will know that this won't last. I'll start twitching and won't be able to sit still. Soon I'll be that obnoxious kid rocking the bench back and forth trying to make the ride more exciting.

Keep Reaching. Keep Climbing. Be Dangerous.

Today's Entertainment News
  • Michael Jackson's children will be accepting his Lifetime Achievement Award tomorrow at the Grammy's
  • Roy Orbison honored with a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame
  • "Little Fockers" - third installment of "Meet The Fockers" was supposed to be released this summer, but is now pushed back to December
  • Matt Damon will be receiving the American Cinematheque Award in March. This award recognizes artists who are making a contribution to the art of movies.
  • ...I told you it wasn't over. PANTS ON THE GROUND will be performed at the Grammy's on the red carpet before the show

1 comment:

  1. I'll stay under the covers... Post-poning reality.

    Please pick up the raw meat on Spadina and deliver on a silver platter.